华语版日记&English diary

2008年 10月10日

今天我好不开心也很开心的，本来今天我打算拿相机去学校，我有向训导处申请的，因为要做毕业短片，准备交上去的，拍到下课的时候，我朋友来找我吃饭，我随口答应，后来，为了不让我的朋友等太久，我交代给另一个同学保管着，下课后，回来班上看见老师在骂人，我就没有什么管，反正这已经见惯了，老师骂完人后，转头又骂我，说我带相机来给同学玩，我什么话也没说，也不知道要说什么，我还想解释，可是我开不了口，老师这么火，我怎么敢说话呢？结果老师不等我的解释就强行说要没收我的相机，我着急，这时的我脑袋空白，我什么说也说不出了，只能想，为什么？
接着就上华文课了，华文老师进来前，我还能强忍自己，不给自己再哭了，因为情势这么突然，我也想不到什么了，我只能忍，我的声音也说不出话来了，其他同学仍然还很关心的安慰我，我什么都知道，就是不懂如何冷静下来，我话说不出来，手也在发抖，看见华文老师时，我更是不能再忍耐了，我还是哭了，不懂为什么看到华文老师，我的泪水总是不能忍，我不想让别人知道我多么软弱，华文老师是看过我哭了很多次的人了，我曾经在她面前哭过很多次，我都不想啊。。。。
我冷静下来思考，我常常会往人性的地方想，我认为，老师真的好霸道，可是我深思，觉得这也不是她的错，同学都说的很对，她只是一时生气，我不应该害怕，我也不知道自己在害怕什么。。。可能怕相机拿不回来吧，那相机很贵的，没收拿不回我很难跟家人交代。。。放学时，我还是抱着难过的心态请求老师给回我，我当时是红着眼睛走去办公室的，当然是低着头走，我不想让谁看到我哭过的样子，结果，老师还是给回我，并且警告我以后不准带来给别人玩，我也觉得很无奈，只要我把证明书给别人，还是能让他小心保管，我还是不说了，因为老师还是会不同意。。。
这一整天很不开心，然后又很开心，我觉得。。。上天还是会保佑我的，我都没有犯错，它要惩罚，也只是那一下咯~~~呵呵。。。。 要看我的专属天使文章请上http://ww2.myfreshnet.com/GB/literature/indextext.asp?free=100163449&page=101505945


2008-10-10
Today I am easy not to feel happy feeling happy also very much , I intend to get rid of school with camera originally today , I have to lecturing a place apply beat arrives at when finishing class , my friend comes to look for me to eat , I agree without thinking because of being going to be used for the short film graduating , prepare to go up to intersect,afterwards, for not allowing my friend to wait very long, I give orders about the queen who gives another schoolmate to be taking care of , finishes class , return in scolding seeing a teacher on the shift, I have had no right away , this has already been accustomed to seeing that anyway, The teacher condemns the perfect man queen , turn head condemning me, criticize me as well as being played by schoolmate coming the camera, my what words says neither , know making an explanation if talking about what , I think of neither, but I the mouth , the teacher get angry come untied without end this way , how I dare to speak? My making an explanation asks result teacher unequal to confiscate my camera , our feeling anxious with regard to forcing to speak, my head blank space at this time, cannot my what doctrine also tells , can only think of, why? Then upper Chinese has levied , I can bear self by force before the Chinese teacher comes in,have not cried again, because of circumstances so abrupt for self, I am also unexpected what, I can only bear, my sound also comes to be able to not speak , the schoolmate still returns our , our back to comforting being concerned with very much other what all knows , is not to know how calmer to get, my words speaks when not coming out, personally also in trembling , seeing the Chinese teacher , I am to be able to not endure again more, I still having cried , not knowing why to see the Chinese teacher, my tear always can not bear , I do not want to let others know I am what flabby , the Chinese teacher is to have looked at me having cried very many times people I had cried once before her I do not all think of very many times. . . . I get calmer the place that thinking , I often will be to human nature thinks of , I think that true good teacher bully, but I ponder over the matter ,feel this is her mistake neither , be in the same school speaking not ought to very much to her only momentary anger , me, I know what self is afraid of dreadfully, neither. . . May be afraid that the camera makes things difficult for sb. not returning that camera is very expensive , confiscating confesses with heel family very difficult not to answer me. . . I still ask a teacher be carrying grieved psychology in breast when school being over, give back to I, I was that the red eye walks away to office's at that time , the of course was to let the head walk low , I did not want whom to let see my appearance have cried , result , teacher to still give me back to , brought about and warning that in the hereafter I am inaccurate being played by others, I also feel very unwilling, as long as I give others with the certificate, still can let him be careful about a storage, I still have not spoken, because of the teacher still may disagree. . . This is once for all day long extremely not joyful , then, very joyful , I think that. . . God be still meeting blesses me , I do not all commit mistake , it needs to punish, also be only that once pheasant's cry ~ ~ ~ haw-haw. . .