我不知道。。。自己是否该忘记。。。他了。。。
一直一直都无法忘记。。。。
如今的。。他。。。变了好多。。。连MSN的文字也变了
我不知道。。。自己是否该伤心。。他。。。好像不爱我了
我不知道。。。自己在乱想吗？好奇怪。。我一直在感觉到
自从他离开后，我们之间的距离也开始变远了。。。我是不是不再爱他了？
I don know. . . If self should forget. . . He. . . Always have no way to forget. . . . Now. . He. . . Have been changed into a lot. . . Even the MSN characters have been changed into I don know. . . If self should be grief. . He. . . Seem not to have loved me, I do not know. . . Does self think of in chaos? How queer. . I have been feeling since he leaves the day afer tomorrow , the unexpected turn of events the distance between us is also started has been distant. . . Have I whether be or not loved him no longer?
2008年10月11日
今天不知道该不该开心？
没有人理睬的一天假日，好无聊，偏偏这时候我的摄像机坏了，真是过的糟糕透了。。。
我很想喊，为什么要这样？？这时我想，看看漫画轻松会好点，每次当我心情不好时，我会吃好吃的，看漫画，看电视，什么也不管。。。之前为了赶功课，我忙了很久很久，都没有时间给自己休息，如今，我偷闲来看看我的宝贝电脑，我电脑也够苦的，因为每次要听我抱怨，哈哈，我也不想抱怨，它的动作很慢，这一次电脑没有进医院我就够安心了，接下来要面对大考，我也不知道自己的前途会怎么样？只能见路走步，我做事从来没有后悔，因为我很坚决，我认为既然已经决定，我是不会给自己后悔的一步，相信朋友们都在考试了，天使也是啊，在积极的面对前方，面对自己，写日记时，我想说的话也觉得轻松多了，所以说，我的宝贝电脑常常听我心事，抱怨的，我想。。。它很了解我吧，我唯一能叙述我的事，就只有电脑，和正在看我日记的网友们，无时无刻，你们也在听着呢！
October 11 , 2008
Do not know should be joy today? A day holiday , regards that the nobody takes notice of are dull, intentionally this moment my telecamera has broken down , too bad having been really has shown. . . Do I want to shout very much , why to want such? ? At this time I think of , take a look at the relaxed meeting of cartoon to be fond of burning, I may be watched TV by the cartoon delicious , taking a look on that, what does not also care when thinking that my state of mind is not good every time. . . Homework , I have been prior to busy for rushing for a long long time, time all is not had a rest by self , now, I snatch a moment of leisure inspecting my baby computer , my computer is also rather bitter , I complain that, ha-ha because of each time needs to listen to, I think of neither complain that its action is very slow , this computer is not hospitalized, I have felt at ease rather , that then, essential points faces end-of-term examination , I know self future neither will be how? Can only see that the road walks with the ball , I work not regretting that, because of I am very determined all along, my think of since already decision, I am the single-step being able to not be regretted that by self , believe that friends have all been in have an exam , the angel has been also Oh, when facing the front , facing self , keeping a diary actively, I think that the words speaking can't think that relaxed saying much, therefore , my baby computer often listens to my load on slef's mind , complain that, I think of. . . It knows me very much , my thing my unique energy is narrated, only has a computer right away , look at and my diary net friend , every minute in course of, you are also listening!
2008年 10月10日
今天我好不开心也很开心的，本来今天我打算拿相机去学校，我有向训导处申请的，因为要做毕业短片，准备交上去的，拍到下课的时候，我朋友来找我吃饭，我随口答应，后来，为了不让我的朋友等太久，我交代给另一个同学保管着，下课后，回来班上看见老师在骂人，我就没有什么管，反正这已经见惯了，老师骂完人后，转头又骂我，说我带相机来给同学玩，我什么话也没说，也不知道要说什么，我还想解释，可是我开不了口，老师这么火，我怎么敢说话呢？结果老师不等我的解释就强行说要没收我的相机，我着急，这时的我脑袋空白，我什么说也说不出了，只能想，为什么？
接着就上华文课了，华文老师进来前，我还能强忍自己，不给自己再哭了，因为情势这么突然，我也想不到什么了，我只能忍，我的声音也说不出话来了，其他同学仍然还很关心的安慰我，我什么都知道，就是不懂如何冷静下来，我话说不出来，手也在发抖，看见华文老师时，我更是不能再忍耐了，我还是哭了，不懂为什么看到华文老师，我的泪水总是不能忍，我不想让别人知道我多么软弱，华文老师是看过我哭了很多次的人了，我曾经在她面前哭过很多次，我都不想啊。。。。
我冷静下来思考，我常常会往人性的地方想，我认为，老师真的好霸道，可是我深思，觉得这也不是她的错，同学都说的很对，她只是一时生气，我不应该害怕，我也不知道自己在害怕什么。。。可能怕相机拿不回来吧，那相机很贵的，没收拿不回我很难跟家人交代。。。放学时，我还是抱着难过的心态请求老师给回我，我当时是红着眼睛走去办公室的，当然是低着头走，我不想让谁看到我哭过的样子，结果，老师还是给回我，并且警告我以后不准带来给别人玩，我也觉得很无奈，只要我把证明书给别人，还是能让他小心保管，我还是不说了，因为老师还是会不同意。。。
这一整天很不开心，然后又很开心，我觉得。。。上天还是会保佑我的，我都没有犯错，它要惩罚，也只是那一下咯~~~呵呵。。。。 要看我的专属天使文章请上http://ww2.myfreshnet.com/GB/literature/indextext.asp?free=100163449&page=101505945
2008-10-10
Today I am easy not to feel happy feeling happy also very much , I intend to get rid of school with camera originally today , I have to lecturing a place apply beat arrives at when finishing class , my friend comes to look for me to eat , I agree without thinking because of being going to be used for the short film graduating , prepare to go up to intersect,afterwards, for not allowing my friend to wait very long, I give orders about the queen who gives another schoolmate to be taking care of , finishes class , return in scolding seeing a teacher on the shift, I have had no right away , this has already been accustomed to seeing that anyway, The teacher condemns the perfect man queen , turn head condemning me, criticize me as well as being played by schoolmate coming the camera, my what words says neither , know making an explanation if talking about what , I think of neither, but I the mouth , the teacher get angry come untied without end this way , how I dare to speak? My making an explanation asks result teacher unequal to confiscate my camera , our feeling anxious with regard to forcing to speak, my head blank space at this time, cannot my what doctrine also tells , can only think of, why? Then upper Chinese has levied , I can bear self by force before the Chinese teacher comes in,have not cried again, because of circumstances so abrupt for self, I am also unexpected what, I can only bear, my sound also comes to be able to not speak , the schoolmate still returns our , our back to comforting being concerned with very much other what all knows , is not to know how calmer to get, my words speaks when not coming out, personally also in trembling , seeing the Chinese teacher , I am to be able to not endure again more, I still having cried , not knowing why to see the Chinese teacher, my tear always can not bear , I do not want to let others know I am what flabby , the Chinese teacher is to have looked at me having cried very many times people I had cried once before her I do not all think of very many times. . . . I get calmer the place that thinking , I often will be to human nature thinks of , I think that true good teacher bully, but I ponder over the matter ,feel this is her mistake neither , be in the same school speaking not ought to very much to her only momentary anger , me, I know what self is afraid of dreadfully, neither. . . May be afraid that the camera makes things difficult for sb. not returning that camera is very expensive , confiscating confesses with heel family very difficult not to answer me. . . I still ask a teacher be carrying grieved psychology in breast when school being over, give back to I, I was that the red eye walks away to office's at that time , the of course was to let the head walk low , I did not want whom to let see my appearance have cried , result , teacher to still give me back to , brought about and warning that in the hereafter I am inaccurate being played by others, I also feel very unwilling, as long as I give others with the certificate, still can let him be careful about a storage, I still have not spoken, because of the teacher still may disagree. . . This is once for all day long extremely not joyful , then, very joyful , I think that. . . God be still meeting blesses me , I do not all commit mistake , it needs to punish, also be only that once pheasant's cry ~ ~ ~ haw-haw. . .
我的心情，全收在你的眼里
You and he do not have the similarity, the semblance not to resemble originally, the disposition is also defeats the purpose, once has fallen in love, year deep date is long, you will be surprised you the eye a little to look like his eye, his smile a little will also look like your smile. You walk step a little is also similar, the speech expression also more and more resembles. On his neck has a mole, one day, you discovered that on oneself neck many moles, originally we will also turn the human who we loved. You like the conscientious person originally, but his is quite always frivolous, but you have fallen in love, he unexpectedly will turn a honest and good-natured person unconscious, this change, not once realized including his also . He likes the lively girl originally, actually has fallen in love with cautious you, recently, your was unexpectedly more and more lively, you almost did not recognize yourself. We will turn in opposite party ideal gradually the human, this kind of change, 絕 to will not be desirably. Two people love for a long time, the makings are also getting more and more close, you once thought that he is not that type which you long for even in dreams, however, one day, you discovered surprised, he already turned that type which you like, you do not need everywhere to search again, he is the human who you must look. Is loving a person's time deeply, you originally really bit by bit will lose itself, you also will think why joyfully? Is probably because you are losing time, also has gained, you gain his makings and his smile.
8月21日 雨
今天没有补习，真的爽死了，可是一整个下午一直下雨，
8月真的有很多很多很哀伤的事，我国的羽球队没有办法夺的奥运金牌，
相信很多球迷很失望吧，我也是，也替宗伟哥难过。
8月，我的好友失恋，8月，就是一直下雨.....
我去医院探望外婆时，突然隔壁的病人突发危机
我就看见他的家属围在床边哭哭啼啼，我听妈妈说：
那个老病人的呼吸道有问题，呼不出气，已经常常呼吸困难
医生来后，就进行抢救，那些家属就在一旁念经祈祷（因为对方是马来人）
这种只有在电视剧看到的情形，真的感触很大
后来过了很久的时间，那个老病人还是救不回了，就这样死在医院里
家属们就很悲痛，抱头痛哭，看得我觉的很无奈
过后回家途中，我想了很久，那病人死了也是脱离了痛苦，虽然很令人悲伤，但是生命已经走到了顶尖
死神的降临，谁能挡得住呢？我的心，也很苦涩.....
那家属也是非常伤心老病人的死，不过最后他们还是接受了，默默的办理了领尸手续....
看在眼里，谁都会心疼吧
8月5日 不愉快的星期二 晴
最近很多人失恋叻，我还蛮难过，因为是朋友嘛...有个朋友刚刚失恋，我就叫他G男吧，G男是我最好的朋友，也曾经是情人。G男退学后我们还有联络，最近也看他沉醉在热恋中但是却常常找我诉苦，说他女友一直欺骗他，我已经劝告G男早些放弃，可那女的却赖着不走...后来G男SMS我，叫我打来，可是我的手机却阴差阳错的丢在房间。直到傍晚我才打过去，才闻讯G男终于分手了，G男说，他用朋友的手机SMS给女友时，女友竟然还问他：你是谁G男很生气，SMS说：你有很多男朋友咩？？然后我猜测那女的应该是打去给另一个男的问后才打回给G男解释可是怎么解释也没用，最后那女的恼羞成怒，骂G男说：你知道真爱咩？你跟我一起只不过是想跟我上床罢了啊！这句真的很伤G男，因为我知道G男对这份感情有认真过，那女的真的....给我知道是谁！我肯定报仇G男说那女的还袒护另一个男的，这另他更生气，终于，走了半年的爱情分手了....G男跟我说，那女的有很多东西让他报仇的，比如拿她的裸照放上网，但理性告诉G男这是会伤害她我很高兴G男明白，后来我说些话去哄他开心...说真的，分手了就没了，千万别去报仇，伤害你也伤害别人刚失恋的人最好找好聊得朋友诉苦，别闷在心里....
8月4日晚上 晴
写日记，说真的，我很懒写的最多三分钟热度，我真的很舍不得要毕业的朋友（中学要毕业的）他们都说要去国外做工或读书，有的还跟我讲要去日本，想气死我了啦很舍不的，他们都只笑笑说会回来，我觉的它们在开玩笑最近考试又累死人，还有很多很多活动要去办。。。 我常常很忧愁，所以我是愁女，唉.....班里的人很不喜欢我，因为我话不多，又得罪过他们，好人难做！有时候想帮忙却越帮越忙..............................
